‘Depression has devoured me’: Celebrity friend reveals K-Pop star Jonghyun’s last note
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‘Depression has devoured me’: Celebrity friend reveals K-Pop star Jonghyun’s last note

A CELEBRITY friend of South Korean pop sensation SHINee member Jonghyun says the K-pop star had recently discussed his “dark and deep feelings” prior to his apparent suicide on Monday.

According to KBS World, the 27-year-old deceased star, whose real name is Kim Jong-hyun, had left a will describing his state of depression with another female artiste known as Nine from another group called Dear Cloud.

“I think every single day was hard for him. I was worried, so I let his family know and tried to console him, but I could only delay the time and wasn’t able to stop him,” Nine said.

“Jonghyun asked me to share this letter when he disappears from the world. I had wished this day would never come… After talking with his family, I am posting his will according to his last words.”

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In the will, Jonghyun explained how he was “broken from the inside” and detailed his self-loathe.

“Depression, which was eating me away, has devoured me in the end, and I could not beat it. I hated myself. I held on to my broken memories and shouted at myself to pull it together, but there was no answer,” Jonghyun said.

“If you ask me why I died, I’ll say I was tired. I was haunted and agonized.

“I never learned how to turn endless pain into joy. Pain is just pain.”

The lead singer of the top South Korean boy band died in hospital on Monday in a possible suicide that robbed fans of the globally-famous K-Pop genre of one of its biggest stars.

Jonghyun was found unconscious next to burning briquettes on a frying pan inside a serviced residence in the South Korean capital Seoul, a police official told Reuters.

“His sister was first to call the police assuming that he might commit suicide,” said the official, who spoke on condition of anonymity because of the sensitive subject. Yonhap news agency said the singer sent a final message to his sister asking her to “let me go.”

Jonghyun spent nearly a decade in his leading role as one of five members of SHINee, one of the most popular boy bands in the country, as well as a solo artist. His death is a blow to the massive worldwide fan base that Korea’s “K-pop” music has attracted in recent years.

Thousands of Korean children dream of becoming household names like rapper Psy, whose 2012 Gangnam Style video was a global YouTube hit, often putting up with punishing schedules in the hope of one day making it big in the music industry.

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K-pop is the rage in Asia, especially in China and Japan, and the industry has made inroads in the West, with a song by the group BTS maintaining a spot on the Billboard 200 for seven weeks as of the end of November.

The genre has become one of the defining icons of Korea and forms a major part of what’s been called the Korean Wave, or hallyu, that has made South Korea a global player in culture, in addition to electronics, cosmetics, and other industries.


Korea Crime Scene Investigation staff enter a hospital where Jonghyun was taken into, in Seoul, South Korea, on Dec 18, 2017. Yonhap via Reuters.

K-pop’s international appeal is such that South Korean President Moon Jae-in used K-Pop celebrities at events, including a state dinner, in China last week in a bid to smooth out a year of difficult diplomacy with a star-laden charm offensive.

Another SHINee member, Choi Min-ho, was brought in to make an appearance with US First Lady Melania Trump during a state visit to Seoul in early November, only to steal the spotlight from her when a loyal fan’s enthusiasm went viral in a video of the event.

Additional reporting by Reuters

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